Just a little bit longer

Since 37 weeks I've been not so secretly hoping this baby would come early, but clearly he's pretty comfortable in there and knows he's entitled to 40 weeks so 40 weeks he will have darn it! I think he knows a good thing when he's found it: a rent controlled apartment overlooking the ocean, free catering daily, and absolutely no responsibilities. That's a pretty sweet deal if you ask me, but seriously baby, if you're not ready to explore the unknown when August 1st comes and goes I'm castor oiling you out of there!

Now that it's getting close people are definitely treating me like a timebomb and it seems like great fodder for chit-chat with strangers or acquaintances, 'wow, must be soon now, eh?' 'quit holding that kid hostage!' 'you must be SOOOO uncomfortable with this heat,' 'gee, I hope everything goes ok with the delivery.' Well, yes thank you, I will absorb your kind of words of support and repel your negative vibes.

I am pretty excited about my upcoming last week of work (which, if maternity policy didn't suck so much, would have been weeks ago), and maybe it's my psychological need for closure that's preventing my body from beginning labor any earlier than my brain can say 'ok, all the loose ends are tied up, you can move on now.' I've really done the best I could to minimize the damage in my absence and I think it'll be just fine. Sure my boss will have some rough days here and there but most people have said that no one realizes how important you are until you're not there and I hope that happens and there will be some sort of parade when I return (more likely a heaping pile of spreadsheets and marketing materials). Another reason I hope this baby comes soon is that I get 12 weeks no matter what, so if he's born 1 or 2 weeks late that means I'll have to leave a 2 1/2 month old when I go back instead of a 3 month old and it seems like every precious day together will make a difference.